Today has been incredibly hectic, not unlike most days. I almost dread getting out of bed every morning because the moment my feet hit the floor I am in constant motion until I return to the refuge of my bed at night. I should be thankful for it, but I seem to be more resentful than full of gratitude. Balance is desperately needed. I believe that starts with re-aligning of my focus.
I had the privilege of going to watch my youngest tonight at a performance at school. She was one of the kindergartners chosen to square dance at the end-of-the-year PTO meeting. As I was standing there in a packed gymnasium; overheated with little personal space and desperately trying to not take in the offensive aromas that were surrounding me; I kept looking for that glimpse of my little girl. I wanted to make sure that if she looked for me, that she would see me and know that she was important and loved. That’s how I imagine that God looks at us. Always looking in our direction, so that as soon as we are ready to look for Him, we will know that we are important and loved. For that, I thank you God.
I suppose instead of beginning my day with trepidation of what tasks are ahead of me, I should be looking for what blessings are along the way. I understand this concept in my head, but I defiantly fall short in application. Today, I was blessed by watching Bethany dance. Today, I was blessed that my husband and 3 other children were able to go and support Bethany. Today, I was blessed with the opportunity to earn money by doing a job to the best of my ability. Today, I was blessed that I am appreciated by my family and peers. Today, I was blessed with a home, food and clothing. Today, I was blessed with the renewal of my mind.
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” – Romans 12:2
My outlook is a choice, just like my faith is a choice. If I allow myself to look at this incredible world around me in anything but awe, I not only do a disservice to myself, but I do a disservice to my God.
Lord, I pray that you would help me to remember this instruction that you have given me. If I begin to slip into conformity, I pray that you would swiftly renew my mind and allow me to see what is important to you. Guide me, teach me and correct me. Today, I am thankful for my Lord.