The past few days have been bitter sweet. Yesterday was my last day at the office where I’ve been working for the past 9 years. I put in my notice 15 months ago, and have only been doing one day a week for the past year, so it wasn’t a shock, but it was a little sad. I’ve gone through a tremendous amount of change while there. I have 2 more kids, a rebuilt marriage, different vehicles, more wrinkles, a larger waist size and a much deeper faith. It’s sad when you say goodbye to people that have watched you go through so many changes. I am so grateful that I’m moving forward with no regrets, and with well wishes from all of my colleagues. Next week they are throwing me a going away party. I have a suspicion that every mistake I made in the past 9 years will be brought to the table as ammunition for a “roast”. It should be fun. 😉
My girls graduated from kindergarten today. I can’t even believe they are already 6 years old and officially 1st graders! I was going back and forth between where their classes had assembled outside, trying to make sure I got equal pictures of each. (They accuse me of loving one more than the other if they aren’t equal on everything. Twins!!!) At one point I stopped in between both classes and held out my arms to both of them and they came running. I actually choked up during that, remembering when they were born 2 months prematurely and I wanted to reach out to both of them. My girlfriend Annette captured this image of the first time I got to see them in the NICU. They were so tiny and fragile. Now they’re rough and tough and not afraid of anything … except spiders.
Summer is officially underway. Camp for Meghan and Connor is quickly approaching, and VBS is right around the corner. It’s all going by too fast. Someone told me years ago that the older you get the faster time goes. I was only 17 at the time, and knew far more that that gentleman did, so I dismissed him as being an old kook. I have since reassessed where I stand on the topic. I’m watching my kids grow and I’m missing far to much of it. Justin is going into the Navy, Meghan only has 3 more years of high school, Connor has 1 more year in middle school, and the girls are in 1st grade. Yikes!!! It’s not just the kids I’m missing, I am in need of uninterrupted time with my husband. Our schedules have not allowed for time to do anything except playing tag with information and children. I’m going to say it again, I really miss him. He makes me laugh and cry (in a good way). He listens to my rambling without getting irritated. He cares about what I think and feel, and doesn’t judge me regardless of my failures or how inappropriate I am at times. Again, I say, I miss my husband. Note to self: schedule date night soon!
Things are changing. It’s exciting and scary all at the same time. That’s OK, I know who is in control.
“Be glad, people of Zion, rejoice in the Lord your God, for he has given you the autumn rains because he is faithful. He sends you abundant showers, both autumn and spring rains, as before.” – Joel 2:23