I’m constantly changing. Growing in my understanding, patience (sometimes), faith … even growing in my waistline! I don’t know that change is something I’ve ever really been afraid of. Yes, at times it hurts and I would prefer a different path, but I typically embrace change with an unquenchable curiosity. Maybe that’s what growing up is all about; embracing the changes.
I have prided myself on not only embracing change that comes my way, but actually seeking it out. It’s probably more of a by-product of ADD than a sense of adventure. Non-the-less I seek and I find. I’m not seeking right now. I’m not changing very much either. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t feel like I am “backsliding”. I know who my God is, and what my identity is in Him. I know the promises that have been given and I stand on them. I know what my strengths and weaknesses are; although my family and close friends could probably help point out some I don’t readily see! Overall, it’s not that I have lost my way or am in any major crisis, it’s that I’m stagnant.
Ironically, water is referenced in 617 different verses in the bible and is in the first chapter of Genesis and the last chapter of Revelation. It’s almost like water is closely linked to the beginning and the end … hmmmm. Think about this with me for a moment. When water is cascading down a waterfall, it is fast and furious, unable to defy the laws of gravity that pull at it. Once it has hit the bottom, it joins in the rapids that are a direct result of the commotion coming from the waterfall. Eventually, the water will become calm; still moving; but moving slow enough to bring serenity. As long as the water has somewhere to go it will remain fresh and sustain life of the animals and plants around it. However, it the water comes to a place where it has no where else to go, it will become stagnant and by default will become poisonous.
I’m stagnant. I need to move in any direction in order to break this cycle that is poisoning me.
Thankfully, I have a God that is the living water, and comes to quench us when we thirst. Thankfully, I have a husband that is supportive and wants to walk this journey side by side. Thankfully, I have the evidence in my own life of what happens when I commit to moving forward into change.
So, I want to change me. I don’t want to dream of who I want to be, I want to step into who God has created me to be. Join me in my evolution, it has already begun.
“On the last and greatest day of the festival, Jesus stood and said in a loud voice, “Let anyone who is thirsty come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.” “- John 7:37-38